In the quiet
and now I have hid from myself
and the world
Theres no place for you here
Im all grown up
is the remembering of you
In the quiet
is the mornings that I held you
In the quiet
is the missing of you
In the quiet is your cry
I still hear
In the quiet of night
like a child
I still fear
like a child
I still fear
In the quiet
there is I
Being quiet
a secret
of being
told to be quiet
Now quiet
told to be quiet
Now quiet
so quiet
I feel I want to scream
and try
a quiet scream
Is all I know
I cant save you
like I thought
your now so young
and Im so old
we have grown apart
I don't know you anymore
I don't know you anymore
and you don't know me
we used to trust
each other
each other
protect each other
but I have grown
and you have stayed behind
as me at three
so quiet
till now
You wake me up
in nightmarish dreams
I hear you scream
only to wake
and find its me
You whisper things
that a child
shouldn't know
You cry tears
through my eyes
and now your depressed
and the doctors
are filling my head
with your mess
Im now trying to hide from you
but I have grown
and you have stayed behind
as me at three
so quiet
till now
You wake me up
in nightmarish dreams
I hear you scream
only to wake
and find its me
You whisper things
that a child
shouldn't know
You cry tears
through my eyes
and now your depressed
and the doctors
are filling my head
with your mess
Im now trying to hide from you
Like they hid me
from the world
from the world
and now I have hid from myself
and the world
and now its too late
theres no way to go back
theres no way to go back
there is no way to explain you
there is no way You can talk
and I don't even know how
All I know is how to be quiet
Im sorry I left you behind
I can't tell you what happen
Like you can't speak for me now
Im sorry I left you behind
I can't tell you what happen
Like you can't speak for me now
You have to go
I can't have you in this world
No one listened
No one is listening now
No one is listening now
Theres no place for you here
Im all grown up
and Im frightened of you
Im not sure of what you saw
of what you know
and I don't want to know
and I don't want to know
its far too late for all of that
Please
be still now
be still now
quiet
please be quiet
please be quiet
I am so sorry for your loss.
ReplyDeleteThere is often a gap between mother and child in understanding.
Children run into their own set of hurts, and the gap in understanding with others increases.
And children will blame things on their parents. It's the way things are, because bad things happen to everyone, and we all look for someone to blame.
Unless we're very lucky, many of us end up alone. People move away, friends die,and families have rifts.
Many people turn to religion and the society there.
And for many there are social media.
I think twitter is very good for linking blogs, which link thoughts, and there is some privacy in replying.
Know that many people go through horrible stuff, different than yours, but bad all the same.
We stick together and get through this with friendships and acquaintanceships. Huggs : )